Game on

I'm making the commitment.  I finally decided yesterday after a month of the scale not moving (because I really haven't been doing anything to make it move) that it was time to take some kind of action. Some pictures from my recent high school reunion were also a good catalyst (yikes!). Joining Weight Watchers right now just wouldn't be financial smart, but the reality is that I've done WW enough that I know how to follow the program. It's not brain surgery.  Of course, not going to meetings means going without the personal support, but maybe I'll hit up some of my friends to join me on this adventure.  

The Internet is such a great help.  I couldn't remember how many points I should be having, but you can find anything with a Google search. I've got 35 points a day to work with.  Thank God for breastfeeding!  I better get this done before Mattie starts eating solids.  That extra 10 points really helps. 

Yesterday actually went really well and I even had pizza with friends for dinner.  It actually feels good to be doing something and not just wishing for the weight to come off. I even told my husband today and his wonderful, immediate response was that he'd stop bringing junk into the house.  Gotta love his skinny soul :).

So, I'm on a 51 pound journey at this point. It seems daunting, but I know I can do it.  I have to do it! I really don't want to pass on this fucked up relationship with food to my daughter.  It's a struggle I hope she can live without.